Closer Than They Appear

reflections from life as a dad


Episode One: What Do You Do?

I got pooped on this morning.

Our son was wide awake. In the middle of the night, he’s not happy to be awake. But when the morning finally comes, he greets the day with a big smile and the unpredictable arm thrashing that is characteristic of babies his age. My wife was still asleep, resting before her day at the office. So I scooped him up, shuttled him to the nearby changing pad, and checked to see what the morning had in store.

He seems to really like being on the changing pad. I put on soft music, and we make eye contact and both laugh as I unsnap the many buttons on his clothes. And then I delicately peel open the soggy diaper. For that brief, revelatory second, we typically stop our banter. I’m focused, caught up in the examination, and he seems aware that I need to pay attention. But this morning, during that moment–during that fragile, delicate moment–my son pooped.

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Welcome to Closer Than They Appear, a podcast created by Mark Lukach about his life as an at-home dad. The podcast features original essays about his varied experience as a dad to a young son.

Here’s what you should know about the show:

  • The first episode will be released on Thursday, September 27.
  • There will be a new episode each week. At least, that’s the hope.
  • Each episode will be somewhere between 5 and 10 minutes.
  • Once the show is live, you can subscribe to it through iTunes.
  • If you want to learn more, go check out the About and FAQ sections.

See you real soon.